My eyes are drawn to the mountains

My daily reading today is about God guiding his people. What is talked about was that God always takes us the best way and not the shortest way.

  • Exodus 13:17-18 – When Pharaoh let the people go, God did not lead them on the road through the Philistine country, though that was shorter. For God said, “If they face war, they might change their minds and return to Egypt.” So God led the people around by the desert road toward the Red Sea. The Israelites went up out of Egypt armed for battle

That is such an important lesson for me, be patient, God is getting me to the destination but he knows the best way to go.  It may be longer, it may be more challenging but it will prepare me and build me on the way.  Everything he does, everywhere he takes me, everything he shows me is part of his amazing plan for my life.

  • Ephesians 1:10 –  Then when the time is right, God will do all that he has planned, and Christ will bring together everything in heaven and on earth.


Everything in heaven and earth is coming together, when the time is right I will hear the crash of heaven touching earth, the plans God had since before my birth accomplished, the devil’s plans abolished as I claim all God has promised, the path is not so clear right now, the direct line obstructed but that’s OK for he has instructed me to fear not, his plans for me are full of success and promise, and just maybe he’ll use this diversion to demolish parts of me that are no longer needed, to water the seeds and tend to the soil, to oil the cogs and pull up the weeds, let’s face it his plans are sublime and as I reflect that I am his, I remember that he is mine, he holds me in the palm of his hands, so as I pass through desert sands, my eyes are drawn to the mountains where I know the fountain of living water flows, which way will he take me there, only God knows….

Keep shining beautiful one

Was reading John this morning and another verse about the Light.  We are all called to be light in our own corner of the world, like God has given us our own territory and we are called to keep it illuminated, to touch everyone passing through, to provide the light in this world where darkness surrounds us.

John 1:5 – And the light shines in the darkness and the darkness did not overcome it


Keep shining beautiful one, the world needs more light, this world needs definition and a single candle can define the darkness, a single candle can defy the shadows, be the light, be as a candle or a mirror reflecting the flickering light of hope, don’t let anything dim the light that shines from within, you are called to be the light and as a candle loses nothing by lighting another, you lose nothing by lighting the path for your brother, be the light, shine in the darkness and the darkness will not overwhelm you, shine for God he will protect you, keep shining beautiful one, press on, I am the light of the world and I have overcome.

Go face the day with joy, God’s got your back

God works everything out in our lives.  There was a time when I would have been sceptical at that suggestion but now, since knowing God I realise that everything happens because of his guiding hand.  People say, “I believe in fate” but really what that means for me is “I believe that God’s in control”.  We meet someone, see something, hear a word, read a passage and God speaks through it, he acts through it and slowly but surely this bigger picture starts to form.  Years ago, many years before I became a Christian I got a job in Australia but was refused a visa because of my sexuality.  At the time I was heart-broken, my dream in tatters.  Now many years on I see God’s hand in that.  I see that his plan was different, let’s face it I never consulted him about moving to Australia I just made the plans and dived right in.  Not long after I became a Christian I planned to move about 6 miles down the road, go to a different church and had got to a few days of exchanging contracts when I felt God saying NO this is not the path for you.  Whilst it was difficult explaining to my partner and then to an irate estate agent that we were pulling out it was absolutely the right thing to do because God wanted me right where I was to grow and evolve in the church family which had so lovingly supported me in my walk to faith.  So I suppose what I have learned is to give God the control because ultimately his plans are superior and he has the most awesome ideas for my life, better than I could come up with!

Romans 8:28 – And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

Jeremiah 29:11 – For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.


Go face the day with joy, God’s got your back, our heavenly Father does not lack control and there’s nothing you can’t overcome with God on your side.  Feel like a failure? Maybe this time is just part of God’s plan for your life, something will grow from all you are going through and that something is you, there’s a hidden purpose in adversity and God purposely chose you, every turn of destiny for your good, he promises to bring good from the storms and there is a purpose behind each situation, God’s plan is being perfected, negative to positive, using your experiences and if through brokenness God can bring hope then praise him for breaking you, for making you a vessel for his glory to shine through, not rejected, simply redirected to a better place, a better life, you better believe that God is in it, just let your mind be ruled by the Spirit, submit to God’s greater plans for you, don’t be ashamed of your story, your history equals my inspiration, go face the day with elation, continually praising Jesus our Saviour.

Maybe we should do something that scares us every day

Was reading the story of Philip in Acts 8 today and how he was led by God and the Holy Spirit to totally change course in order that he could minister to one man.  Now we don’t really know the impact that he had on the world through following God’s voice, we do know that the man was baptised by Philip but we can only guess at the impact he had on his community when he returned home.  So we may never know the impact we have on the lives of those God calls us to talk to but we do know we need to listen for God’s voice, the prompting of the Holy Spirit and do what he asks us to do.


Go, go now, that’s right, follow that road that’s where I want you today. Say what, but I thought you wanted me here and now you want me there, to share your word with her?When God talks we listen, give him your undivided attention, not to mention obey him when he talks, this walk is God’s not ours, do not lower your expectations, ride on the crest of the wave to help others be saved, God lights up your path, don’t switch off the light, he directs us, right place, right time, that’s not by chance, take a stance for God, it’s not so hard, listen to his whisper and you’ll find it couldn’t be clearer, draw nearer to God and he draws close to you, telling you what he wants you to do, it may seem scary but maybe we should do something that scares us every day if we are to say we did it God, we served the Lord, answered your call, and you know what, we didn’t fall.

God’s word was given to change the sinner

When you cry out to God he answers, like really answers and I find that so comforting and awesome rolled into one!  I was talking intently to God yesterday, all to do about my past, my choices and how difficult I found it sometimes to walk this path.  For those who read my Blog regularly my battle with Homosexuality is well documented, every so often the devil pokes his nose in and just taunts me, is this what God really wants for you, are you sure he needs you to take this path etc.  He may do this in my head or use others (Christians included) to plant the seed of doubt (so some say “do you really need to give it up, surely God still loves you”) and I was earnestly seeking God’s help and guidance on whether I had made the right choice – so here is the reference he gave me:

Matthew 7:13-14 – ‘Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it.  But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.

OK God, I get it, so the choice I made is right and from you, but you never said it would be easy so I’ve got to kind of stop allowing others to get at me, got to get my head straight, trust you, have faith that this is your path for me and move forward head held high.

Ephesians 5: 8-10 – For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light (for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth) and find out what pleases the Lord.

Ephesians 6:10 10 – Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power.


This is the way, find the gate to life and stay on that path, it’s the road less travelled, the narrow path, not easy to negotiate but always right, moving from darkness to light, and I may not understand now but I will, I will learn God’s purpose, he loves us and as we follow his commands he commands our lives, I believe, I receive, so I figure out what pleases God and then just do it, not always easy but worth it, keeping the momentum going, showing others the love of God, the changes in my heart as I walk his path remembering that his great power is behind me, my strength comes from him who saved me, Holy Spirit guide me to the truth for God’s word was given to change the sinner, not the sinner to change God’s word to suit their sin, God I let you in and I gave you my heart, set me apart from those who choose the highway to hell, let all rest well with me as I pursue your way, as I earnestly seek you day by day, calm my thoughts, protect my mind, hedge me in both from the front and behind, remind me of your great sacrifice, no matter how hard the road ahead I pledge my life, no longer dead to your amazing grace but trusting, believing and running your race.

When I walk through a storm I plan to let go

Colossians 2 6-8  So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live your lives in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness.

Micah 6:8  He has shown you, O mortal, what is good.   And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.

Just feel it’s so important to remember that Jesus is beside us constantly, wherever I go he is there,  my choice whether I embrace that or forget it, so I can talk to Jesus in every situation, seek his guidance, his comfort, his counsel or I can just forget he is there and try and do it my way.  So I may have only been a Christian a while but I already know that embracing Jesus and seeking his input at every crossroad, whenever I need to make a decision, before I even get out of bed each morning etc is the best and only way forward with him, he calms the storms… just a quick reminder is needed sometimes when I try and do it all myself that I should be walking more closely with Jesus, maybe that’s a bit of a hangover from my past life but something I am working on…


I have a new story to write, a new chapter of my life which is nothing like the past, but I have to let go of what I’m used to so I can walk bravely into the unknown, I have to learn that when I say Lord I cannot, he says yes but I can, when I’m wrestling with doubt I can cry out to the Lord, I don’t walk alone for my Father is with me but where is he taking me?  There is no confusion over the destination just a question over the path and the route but I’m not worrying about that, I worry too much, God’s got this, God’s all over it so when I walk through a storm I plan to let go, fill my mind with God’s word and leave no room for the enemies lies, walk every day with Jesus glued to my side, yes he is my map, my compass, my guide and yes he opens doors, picks me up when I fall, he shields me from panic and manically trying to retrace my steps, he pushes me forwards protects me from the enemy, he is there beside me and I fear no evil when he is with me, awake or asleep he protects me and when I wake up each morning he is still with me the torch to my feet the light to my path, he fills my heart with love and peace, I know that when I seek his will in all I do he leads me beside the still waters, the storm diminished, ended, finished and I am able to stand victorious, proclaiming his glorious name, no more blame, no more shame, with Jesus walking the path beside me I have claimed the victory and I will act justly, love mercy and however hard this earthly walk, I walk it humbly with my God, whose hands,feet and side were scarred for me so I could walk in liberty.

I have upheld since your birth, and have carried you since you were born

So today was thinking about Blogging and listening to God was on my mind.  Was thinking about this and then went on my afternoon dog walk and devoted some time to listening to God and think he had other ideas for my Blog today!!  So, long story short, was counselling day again yesterday and up to now I am struggling with dealing with a certain aspect of my childhood and rather than face up to it just use my iPod to blast into my ears when I fear thoughts will come into my mind.  Today, accidentally left the iPod at home so I had nowhere to hide, but guess what, God was there and I listened to him and felt an incredibly strong message from him, was very emotional but was really about allowing myself to hand it to him, recognising that he was there with me throughout, he didn’t like what I went through but he couldn’t change it (and I do understand why) but yes he rescued me and sustains me now and will do for the rest of my life.  This was the bible reference I got from this

Isaiah 46 – ‘Listen to me, I have upheld since your birth, and have carried you since you were born. Even to your old age and grey hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.


Damaged heart, scarred mind, broken spirit

Observing from a distance, feeling like an outsider

An outcast, face doesn’t fit, where do the memories sit now, where can they go?

But go they must like ashes to ashes, dust to dust, the memories must wither and die

I must reclaim my own mind, I will find peace in you God my Saviour

I will reclaim the lost years for I have found favour with the Living God

I know that he is love, God is what love looks like, a love that never dies, never fails

God saw my pain, my hurt, my shame,

He’s not to blame

God never left me alone, never abandoned me, he did watch over me

He did shed tears for me, his heart ached for me

He gave his life for me

And he has been with me since my birth

So many times he carried me but I didn’t feel his arms surrounding me

I was angry, not ready, yet still he was there for me

Now I am ready, I hear his voice

“Hand it back to me, hand it all to me”

And when I finally let go, hand it all back to God, the old story ends

The new journey sends me back to my destiny

The plans God had for me were not wasted, he rescued me

And I was created to enjoy all God has in store for me

And there’s even more to come and that’s his promise to me for eternity