I offer my devotion to my Abba, Father

God came so that we may have freedom.  More and more as I walk this walk I see how Satan targets our minds and seeks to steal some of that freedom from us.  He got to me this week but not for long!  As soon as I immerse myself back in prayer and God’s word I am able to use this double-edged sword to cut Satan down to size and I encourage you to do the same.  Satan is a liar, a deceiver and he targets the vulnerable areas of your mind.  When he does this just take a look at Romans 8, we are sons and daughters of God and NOTHING can separate us from God’s love.

Romans 8: 14-17 – For those who are led by the Spirit of God are the children of God. The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to sonship. And by him we cry, “Abba, Father.”  The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children.  Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.

Romans 8:37-39 – in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.


It’s only in surrender that I’m free, loved forever, that’s me, and I will walk in freedom, devoted to your will, for there is nothing I want outside the will of God and in the will of God there is nothing I fear, I surrendered my heart to you and in return you have protected it with a love that calms all fears, you are so near to me I can reach out and touch you, so close I can feel your heartbeat, it’s so neat that with you on my side I am more than a conqueror, because you loved us first we are free to love unconditionally, nothing in all creation can separate us from your love, nothing on the earth or in heaven above can keep us apart, I am a child of God, led by the Spirit who has broken the chains of slavery, yes I am free, no longer in fear, no longer living near the edge, I am Christ centred having entered into adoption, heir to God himself, a co-heir with Jesus, now that’s got to be a plus, I am a new creation and yes I am full of elation, I offer my devotion to my Abba, Father, I share in his sufferings and I share in his glory, I happily tell others my story, freed from a shameful past, at last happy to speak of what was, what is and what is to come, cos it all speaks of God’s glorious Kingdom, my adoption into his family, the love that he gave that set me free.

Don’t look through the eyes of those who don’t value you

Been looking at our identity in Christ for a session I am taking in a couple of weeks and realised that it is so easy to allow others to affect who we think we are, sometimes it just takes a stray comment to dent us or even the unsaid word which makes us overthink what others think about us.  So here’s the news (and read Ephesians 1 if you need more evidence), God loves us and our identity is in him, we are forgiven, adopted, loved and raised up with God, who cares what the world says about us, with Jesus on our side we don’t need human affirmation.


Don’t let your struggles become your identity, one conversation, one text message, one phone call, one bad day at the office, don’t look through the eyes of those who don’t value you, “sorry I’m not good enough, I tried to be”, stop loving your problems, fearing recovery, too often our identity is based on the wrong things, we hate our imperfections, compare ourselves to others, I’m a victim of circumstances, always messing up, too scared to let go, no good unless I prove it, in competition with the world, it’s complicated, I have a past, I have history, I’ve made mistakes, took wrong steps, compromised…… stop torturing yourself, that’s just the lies of the enemy strategically told to disable you, prevent you from realising all God has for you, your identity was defined when God met you, God divinely pieced you back together again, he reigns in you, your identity is in Christ, it’s time to make him the centre of your life.


My identity not in who I was but who you want me to be

My identity has changed significantly over the past 18 months and this Sunday I even described myself as “ex-gay”.  For my whole life since my teenage years my identity has been very much about my sexuality, however now I have a new identity and that is as God’s daughter. God has given me so much more to identify with and it is important to me that I don’t allow the enemy to drag me back down, to damage my new identity in order to get at me so this prayer is my “fervent” pray of thanksgiving to God for my new identity.

  • 1 Peter 2:9 – But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.
  • Galatians 3:26 – So in Christ Jesus you are all children of God through faith
  • John 8:36 -So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed
  • Colossians 3:1-4 – Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God.  When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory
  • John 15:16 – You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit – fruit that will last – and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you.


Praise you Father God that I have been raised with Christ, I died to my sins and now my life is hidden with you, praise you that when you appear again I will be with you in glory a perfect ending to an imperfect story, thank you Father for choosing me, appointing me to bear fruit, for choosing me before the foundations of the world were laid, no longer a slave to the past, at last I have an identity, an authenticity that means who I am in you matters more than what others think and what the enemy seeks to tell me, protect me from complacency, help me courageously fight the stigma of the past, I am forgiven, I am a new creation, my identity not in who I was but who you want me to be, I am your child, appointed and loved, free and victorious, transformed, reformed and through your word I am fully informed, I know the battle is not against flesh and blood , thank you for your love that surrounds me in the fight, help me keep your light shining as you are refining me, Father let my identity remain in you in everything I say and do.

What does that look like, thinking like Christ?

I love this verse

Philippians 2:5 – In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus:

It’s not always easy to get on with others but what a challenge, try and have the same mindset as Christ in all your relationships.  Been thinking about what that really looks like…


Let me be like God my Saviour, may all my behaviour reflect his ways, may I have the same mind set the same way of thinking, and I’m thinking now what does that look like, thinking like Christ?  I might sum it up as having a love that never gives up, being unselfish, not being ambitious, never vain or conceited, being humble, respectful, not neglectful of my friends and family, always ready to listen without interrupting, to speak without accusing, to forgive freely and give of myself completely, to act in such a manner that I am living proof of a loving God, through obeying his word, taking captive every word and making it obedient to Christ, regarding all others as more important than me, serving with humility, laying my all at his feet, offering all that I have and living a life full of love.

The Devil is a liar, his entire mission to undermine my self-control

Looking back it’s 50 days since I last cut myself – awesome.  BUT over the last few days thoughts of self-harm have crept back in and I am now struggling with harming myself in other ways and that’s not awesome at all, it’s confusing and difficult to understand.  I have sought prayer support for this and I think today have finally realised that this is a Spiritual battle.  I have not really thought much about what that means before now but it’s beginning to sink in and that kind of makes it easier to understand and therefore to fight against.

Ephesians 6:12 – For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.

2 Corinthians 10:4 – The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds.


I am at war, my enemies are real, they’re strong, they’re attacking me, temptation, oppression, obsession, filling my mind with suggestions that take me away from all you have for me, seeking to secure my mind, to find an area of weakness and they are ceaseless in their attack, incessantly looking for chinks in my armour, and then I remember my armour, God’s armour made especially for me to protect and support me and I forget to put it on, like genuinely forget that you offer me protection, I fear I have no concept of how much you protect me from and I must put on the armour without fail, keep alert, stand strong in my faith, be courageous, be strong, beating the battle within, being disciplined in my daily walk, talking to the Lord and asking him to take my hand, lead me through the minefield of my mind, for only God can destroy mental strongholds and teach me the truth and the Devil is a liar, his entire mission to undermine my self-control, to take my focus off serving God, to hinder my prayer for he knows that prayer is a powerful weapon so here it is, Satan you don’t scare me cos I’m a prayer warrior, I surround myself with warriors on the same mission with a strong vision and we recognise our weapons are not of the world, our Godly weapons have divine power to demolish strongholds, your stranglehold on me was broken the day I spoke to God and gave my life to him, and you know that God is preparing me for greater things, God will lead me, so I leave my fear behind, I have God’s strength and in my human frailty when all else fades, God remains, I reach out to God and ask for his strength he knows where I am, how I am feeling, he knows the beginning and the ending and on the day I meet him in heaven the battle won, the war over I will say, I made it, my battle against the forces of evil ended, the enemy extinguished, and I remember  the Cross and claim for myself Christ’s words “it is finished”.

Onward and upward you Christian Soldier

OK so have had Ephesians 6 on my mind and reading it today really fired me up for our loving God, life is a battle and the more I know God the more I think I see the battle and understand how we can be attacked or deceived by the enemy unless we put on the armour of God. Some other verses that kind of resounded along with this were

James 4:7 – Submit yourselves therefore to God, resist the devil and he will flee from you 

Hebrews 10:35-36 – So do not throw away your confidence (boldness); it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.


I am a Spiritual Warrior, onward and upward you Christian Soldier, I am strong in the Lord, he is building a people of power and I, wearing the full armour can take my stand against the enemy, let’s face it the Christian walk is a battleground not a playground and I stand against the schemes of the devil, I am strong in the face of evil for I am strong in the Lord and his Mighty Power and the task ahead of me is never as great as the Power behind me, I am not afraid, I stand firm throughout the unseen battle, for those who trust the Lord are protected by his constant love, have Faith, by Faith I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and our struggle is not against flesh and blood but against spiritual wickedness and as God is my witness I will persevere in my fight, I claim the might of my heavenly Father, I pray that whenever I speak God gives me the right words so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of God’s love, I submit myself to God so the devil will flee, I claim boldness and confidence in my Saviour, pray ceaselessly in the Spirit with all kind of prayers, layer upon layer of prayers of servanthood, living the good life that Jesus promised secure in the knowledge that I have my Spiritual armour, and God looks down and says “nothing will harm her” for she is my daughter with whom I am pleased, she has received my love freely, believed in me completely, prays to me ceaselessly, and her timidity will be replaced with daring and determination, her life full of love, trust and affirmation and God I declare that I want to serve you as one of your Warriors, not by my might or power but by your Spirit, I put on the armour and stand firm for I know that with you I am never alone.