I have passion to become more than a conqueror, a leader, a warrior

Sometimes I can see progress, other times I don’t feel like I am changing, but I take heart from this verse:

Philippians 1:6 – being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus

Jesus chose me for a reason and sees all the potential that I can’t see, with the Holy Spirit working in me I can do amazing things for God and that is exactly what I want to be doing, unfortunately I have never been the most patient person and that’s a lesson I think God is teaching me right now, be still and know that he is God.


Patience, not my strong point, but the point is that when I gave my life to him work had to begin to transform me, to remove the darkness of the past and let his light shine in, preparing me for greater things, his greatness planted in me like a seed that is to be nurtured and nourished with God’s word, his plans for me immeasurably more than all I could ask for or ever imagine, he’s given me gifts and now I have passion to become more than a conqueror, a leader, a warrior, trust is the key and he didn’t bring me this far to leave me, so I trust his process designed to make the most of me, I am a work in progress, so watch this space, have faith, have patience, God isn’t finished with me, I will evolve, grow and improve because of his immense love for me.

I consistently carry my cross and follow Jesus

I keep coming back to this scripture in Matthew, it’s on my mind a lot recently. I think there are so many elements to picking up your Cross and following God, really sacrificing your own plans for God’s and looking at areas of your life such as forgiving others, being humble, being grateful and how you live on a daily basis.  I know that I often think of my “Cross” as not having the relationship I used to have and yes that is a daily battle, but now I see it as much more and I purpose to think on how I can follow Jesus more closely and what areas of my life I need to change or allow him to work in so that I can be a better disciple.

Matthew 16:24 – Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.

Philippians 3: 7-9 – Whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ – the righteousness that comes from God on the basis of faith.


Forgiveness, faith, thankfulness, humility, my destiny depends on my ability to consistently carry my cross and follow Jesus, to be a reflection of God’s Kingdom, lay down my will, his will be done, embrace God’s plan with courage, for what was valuable to me is now worthless, in losing my old life I have found the life God created for me, my purpose now defined and now God starts to refine me, mould me and build me, it’s difficult but I must be willing to embrace rejection and suffering for the challenges will be rewarding , self-denial, God’s will before mine, it’s hard, it hurts but it works… the rewards of obedience far outstrip the sacrifices of this life, my faith will see me through, I endure the race to the end and with Jesus as my friend I now comprehend the price he paid for me so that I could be free, the pain he endured, his suffering outweighs anything I can feel, his sacrifice real, personal and individual, he died for me and so I pick up my cross and follow, no waiting for tomorrow for tomorrow never comes, I pick up my cross, for my loss is minimal compared to the gains, my reward an eternity of life without end.

I’m undeserving but that doesn’t unnerve him

Do we need any excuse to praise God, I don’t think so!!  When I think of all God has done for me my heart is filled with love, gratitude, praise and worship for my amazing God.

Psalm 100: 1-2 – Shout for joy to the Lord, all the earth. Worship the Lord with gladness; come before him with joyful songs

Philippians 4:4 – Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: rejoice!

 Who Am I?

You wanna know why I shout for joy, sing songs of praise and punch the air, why I can’t contain my love for God, it’s not hard it’s simply that God loves me, before I knew Jesus I was nothing, then I met him, he is everything and he calls me “friend”, the creator of the universe knows my name and loves me more that I will ever comprehend, and now I am something, OK so I’m undeserving but that doesn’t unnerve him, Jesus gave everything for me, he delights in me, and I celebrate his love, jump for joy when I think of all he’s done for me, I rejoice in the Lord who’s brought me this far, he made me, I am his and because of this all that is within me is filled with joy, I am loved, singing a new song direct from my heart, I praise and proclaim the name of Jesus, I laugh without fear of the future for I am a child of God, blessed, redeemed, adored and esteemed by an awesome Father, I am stronger through his love, my future secured, who am I? I am God’s

What does that look like, thinking like Christ?

I love this verse

Philippians 2:5 – In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus:

It’s not always easy to get on with others but what a challenge, try and have the same mindset as Christ in all your relationships.  Been thinking about what that really looks like…


Let me be like God my Saviour, may all my behaviour reflect his ways, may I have the same mind set the same way of thinking, and I’m thinking now what does that look like, thinking like Christ?  I might sum it up as having a love that never gives up, being unselfish, not being ambitious, never vain or conceited, being humble, respectful, not neglectful of my friends and family, always ready to listen without interrupting, to speak without accusing, to forgive freely and give of myself completely, to act in such a manner that I am living proof of a loving God, through obeying his word, taking captive every word and making it obedient to Christ, regarding all others as more important than me, serving with humility, laying my all at his feet, offering all that I have and living a life full of love.

May I be filled with the nourishing fruits of righteousness

Was reading about Spiritual growth and was led to some specific verses that are pretty awesome in that regard.

Ephesians 3:16-19 – I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge – that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

Philippians 3:10 – I want to know Christ – yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death

Ephesians 1:17-19 – I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit  of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better.  I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people, and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is the same as the mighty strength

Philippians 1:10-11 – so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless for the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ—to the glory and praise of God.

John 17:12 – While I was with them, I protected them and kept them safe by that name you gave me. None has been lost except the one doomed to destruction so that Scripture would be fulfilled.

This led me to write this my own prayer for Spiritual growth.


Build up my innermost being, my thoughts and consciousness, invigorate my spirit so that I am firmly grounded in love and let me build my life on a solid foundation of love, let me fully grasp the span of your love, how long, how high and how deep your love is so that my whole being may be entirely filled with the abundance of God, so my body is saturated with God himself that you may shine through me, that I might truly know you and the full power of your resurrection, be full of your wisdom and revelations, may the eyes of my heart be flooded with light that illuminates the intensity of your power in me and may I see the greatness of your power working through me, gain understanding of what is right and vital, what adds true value and may I flourish, may I be filled with the nourishing fruits of righteousness and know protection from the enemy, may I know your will and desires, may I be strengthened and full of power, able to withstand every hardship with patience and joy in my heart, rejoicing always with thanksgiving and praise, God with me, God in me may you shield me and keep me safe, pure and blameless for all of my days.

I will not look back in anger

OK so truth is had a tough day yesterday and it’s so easy when looking back at the past to then dwell on it and what might have been, almost got to a “sliding doors” scenario in my mind last night, what could have been, what might have been, and also (sorry God) but I did get a bit angry about the past and maybe didn’t listen to my own advice or really absorb God’s word, but this morning God has flooded me with messages and I pray to work on this and really listen to God so that I can move forwards once more.

First message, woke up with this on my mind from God

Psalm 23:4 Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me;

Second message (I have a number of laminated verses and like to carry one with me, picked up one at random this morning)

2 Chronicles 15:7 – But as for you, be strong and do not give up, for your work will be rewarded.’

Third message from a friend messaged me in a conversation first thing:

Philippians 3:14 I press on towards the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenwards in Christ Jesus.

Fourth message posted on our Church Facebook page (sort of like a weekly thought)

Romans 15:13 – May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.


Even though I walk through this dark valley, I will not fear, for you are with me, you are near and I will not look back in anger, will not look back in pain or sorrow cos tomorrow is a new day, a new beginning and gradually I am winning back my confidence, my determination to build on the foundations of my faith and God does not waste anything, I am not defined by my past, I am prepared by my past, I am a product of God’s love and has he not commanded me, be strong, be courageous, do not be terrified, do not be discouraged, for I am with you wherever you go, and I know he holds my future in his hands, my God is enough, what more could I need, so I press on towards the goal to win the prize for which God called me, through all this confusion and pain I remain strong in the fact that God called me, he saw me floundering, saw me struggling and reached out his hand to me, so I have to see that God is good and would not abandon me now, however hard, however painful I know his angels watch over me, I know he shields and protects me, he fills me with joy and peace and that sure beats relying on your own understanding, stumbling along as your life falls apart at the seams, whatever God brings you to he will bring you through, whatever life throws at you you can beat it with God’s guidance, love and completeness and you can stay strong, you belong to Jesus and your work will be rewarded, he has thwarted the enemy, death is defeated, your salvation completed by his death on a Cross, so count not your losses or your failures, your Saviour offers you favour, fills you with hope by the power of his Spirit and now at this pivotal time in my life I turn my back on the strife and pain of my past, what do I gain through looking back, I press on towards the plans that God has laid down for me, I claim victory over my mind, death is defeated, conquered and crushed, I am an overcomer, a winner, and a redeemed child of the ultimate victor.

When you feel like a wounded left handed person in a right handers world

When you feel like life is a bit of a battle it is so easy to let it get you down, so I have something on my mind that is a personal battle, but am I letting my mind make a mountain out of a molehill?  it’s something I don’t have to face up to until the middle of next week so:

  1. Why am I getting anxious about it now?
  2. Why am I anxious about it at all, why don’t I just trust God to deal with it?

So looked to God’s word for some encouragement and support and hey it’s just filled with enough to stop me worrying and put me back on track.  One obvious verse jumped out at me Philippians 4:6  but I also loved this verse from Ezra for I know I am surrounded by Christians who will support me, yes I need to deal with certain stuff myself but God is with me and has surrounded me with others who will also support me.

Ezra 10:4 rise up, this matter is in your hands, we will support you so take courage and do it


When you feel like a wounded left handed person in a right handers world, the “has-been”, the underdog, the “also ran”, when you feel like David fighting Goliath, stand up… stand out…. stand firm.   You may feel like the world is against you, the task is too great, the battle is over or it’s too late, but then you remember yesterday’s news, David won!  Yes David defeated Goliath and he was a giant, and that was a victory, a triumph for the disadvantaged and God told you not to be discouraged, God told you do not be afraid he is your rock and your fortress, mighty to deliver us and when we go through deep waters he is with us, holding our heads up above the water, reminding us that we are his sons and  his daughters, giving us courage to do what we oughta and promising us that he will support us, do not be anxious but pray with your eyes on God not your problems, pray to our God who provides solutions, for with God all things are possible whatever your obstacles our God can move mountains, his blessings are countless, his love is relentless and he never meant for us to be anxious, fearful or nervous, he came to serve us, to save us, to free us, and when life feels like a battle, a struggle, a conflict all you need to do is turn your heart, your eyes and your mind to Jesus.