I am the disciple who Jesus loved

John 20:2 – So she came running to Simon Peter and the other disciple, the one Jesus loved, and said, “They have taken the Lord out of the tomb, and we don’t know where they have put him!”

The Bible refers to “the disciple Jesus loved”.  Today I was thinking that is actually each and every one of us.  The Bible doesn’t give exclusivity to one person and I truly believe that the love of Jesus is enough for each of us to be in the position to say, I am the disciple whom Jesus loves!”

Psalm 93:4 – Mightier than the thunder of the great waters, mightier than the breakers of the sea—the Lord on high is mighty

Romans 5:8 – But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us


I am the disciple who Jesus loved, I am that person, the wonderful thing is he calls me beloved, loved at my darkest, loved as an outcast, he loves the ones the world loves to hate, he takes ashes and sees beauty, as he looks at me his love is mightier than the waves of the sea, he knows that I’m broken and I know I’m not perfect, but I am forgiven, seeking to live my life in such a way that those who know me will come to know God, I want to be recognised as the girl who knows Jesus, I want to go out into the world and keep his commandments, humble myself and seek his face, be impactful when I pray, be unafraid, I want to stop comparing and start celebrating, for if God is for me, who can be against me, if God loves me what more do I need, I am his and my gratitude overflows, my joy is of infinite worth to Jesus, my love reciprocated by the man who died to save us, who died for me simply because I am the disciple who Jesus loves.

I’m no longer concerned about public opinion

Jesus calls each of us by name.  If you are reading this as a Christian there will have been a moment in time when Jesus called your name, and you responded.  It came to me today that Mary Magdalene was the first person called by the risen Lord.  The first of us who believed in our “risen” Saviour.

  • John 20:16 – Then Jesus said to her, “Mary!” She turned and said to him, “Rabboni.” The Aramaic word “Rabboni” means “Teacher.”

She is the model we should all follow, what did she do when Jesus called her name.  She went and told others that she had seen Jesus.  This is exactly what Jesus calls us to do.

  • Matthew 28:19 – Go to the people of all nations and make them my disciples. Baptize them in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit,


He has called me by name and I am his, he has called me, my name was on his lips, my name that was engraved on his hands spoken out loud, picked out, selected, not just one of the crowd, chosen by Jesus to be victorious, elected to receive his glorious grace, a place reserved for me in his heavenly Kingdom, I’m no longer concerned about public opinion, cos he who counts the stars and knows them by name is the same God who has redeemed me and called me by name, he sees me as worthy to no longer go thirsty, his rivers of living water flow through me, he calls me to share, to dare to be bold, to speak life into those who are weary or out in the cold, he calls me to go out, make disciples of the nations, his desire that all will receive his salvation.

My thirst for love satisfied by the one who died for me

Part of a talk I heard yesterday showed me that we can only love others to the extent we know in our hearts that we are loved.  Likewise, we can only accept others, forgive others, cherish others and see others as precious and valuable if we know in our hearts that we are accepted, forgiven, cherished, precious and valuable.

This was one lesson that spoke to me, the “forgiven” aspect was clear.  I get that forgiving is sometimes a process.  I greatly admire those who forgive immediately and don’t get hung up on it.  I have struggled with forgiveness and I wrote on a piece of paper, I need to forgive my brother.

How God knows us!  Later in the same meeting there were some words of knowledge and the third one caused my heart to skip a beat and a lurch in my stomach.  God wants someone to reconcile with their brother. WOW. 

Just goes to show God knows our struggles, our needs and he wants to be an encouragement to us.


Loved, a bridge to loving others, experiences shared, perceiving their needs because I was loved first, my thirst for love satisfied by the one who died for me, true love given selflessly. 

Accepted, part of God’s family, adopted daughter established with royalty, now I can accept those who surround me

Forgiven, set free, no longer condemned, hemmed in on each side by guilt and shame, blamelessly I sit at the foot of the cross, redeemed at no cost to me, forgiving others so that I can be free.

Cherished, respected and revered, no longer living in fear of condemnation, those days are past and so at last I see that I too can cherish those close to me

Precious to my Father God, beloved and prized, opening my eyes to how I should treasure all those whose lives impact me

Valuable, a precious diamond in his sight, his light reflected in my eyes, my prize to value those around me, praise God for friends and for my family.

It’s OK to admit my imperfection

Sometimes I reflect on what could have been.  But then I realise that although I went astray, that wasn’t a surprise to God.  After all he chose me, he wrote my name in his Book of Life, so he must have known what the outcome was going to be.  Sure, I went down the wrong path, but he called me back.  He kept a check on me and he gave me another chance and for that I am eternally grateful, what a loving, forgiving and awesome God we serve.

Ephesians 2:8-9 – For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast.

1 John 2:1 – My little children, I am writing these things to you so that you may not sin. But if anyone does sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous.


Nothing in our lives is a surprise to God.  My destiny not dependent on my being perfect, God knew I would make mistakes, that’s why God gives perfect grace, God does not turn his face away when we go astray, it’s OK to admit my imperfection, the resurrection saw to that, Jesus who was in himself perfection, a sinless man, carried the can for us all on the Cross,  victory secured, he furrows a path through the valley for me to walk through, the God of love who pursued me understands me perfectly, he knew me before I was created, God is within me and I will not fail, as surely as he took those nails in his hands and feet for me I will claim victory, the sovereignty of God saw to that for me, King of Kings he resigns supreme, Lord of Lords I hear his words, one day at his name every knee will bow, and I choose to bow right here, right now, God I may not have always followed the path you chose for me, freewill getting in the way of my destiny, but here I am use me now, choose me, allow me to be serve, reserve a place for me in your warrior army as I take part in this incredible journey.

I offer my devotion to my Abba, Father

God came so that we may have freedom.  More and more as I walk this walk I see how Satan targets our minds and seeks to steal some of that freedom from us.  He got to me this week but not for long!  As soon as I immerse myself back in prayer and God’s word I am able to use this double-edged sword to cut Satan down to size and I encourage you to do the same.  Satan is a liar, a deceiver and he targets the vulnerable areas of your mind.  When he does this just take a look at Romans 8, we are sons and daughters of God and NOTHING can separate us from God’s love.

Romans 8: 14-17 – For those who are led by the Spirit of God are the children of God. The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to sonship. And by him we cry, “Abba, Father.”  The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children.  Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.

Romans 8:37-39 – in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.


It’s only in surrender that I’m free, loved forever, that’s me, and I will walk in freedom, devoted to your will, for there is nothing I want outside the will of God and in the will of God there is nothing I fear, I surrendered my heart to you and in return you have protected it with a love that calms all fears, you are so near to me I can reach out and touch you, so close I can feel your heartbeat, it’s so neat that with you on my side I am more than a conqueror, because you loved us first we are free to love unconditionally, nothing in all creation can separate us from your love, nothing on the earth or in heaven above can keep us apart, I am a child of God, led by the Spirit who has broken the chains of slavery, yes I am free, no longer in fear, no longer living near the edge, I am Christ centred having entered into adoption, heir to God himself, a co-heir with Jesus, now that’s got to be a plus, I am a new creation and yes I am full of elation, I offer my devotion to my Abba, Father, I share in his sufferings and I share in his glory, I happily tell others my story, freed from a shameful past, at last happy to speak of what was, what is and what is to come, cos it all speaks of God’s glorious Kingdom, my adoption into his family, the love that he gave that set me free.

He forgave me my trespasses back at the Cross

I was meditating on God’s word today and I just felt God saying that I am Anointed, Blessed, Loved and Elevated.  God’s words to me today. WOW, I am ABLE.

This immediately reminded me of the verse:

Philippians 4:3 – “I am able to do all things through God who strengthens me”.

It also made me think about other Bible verses that talk about our “ability” to do things:

  • 1 Corinthians 10:13 – God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able
  • John 9:15 – So the Pharisees asked him again how he had gained his sight. He replied, “He put mud on my eyes and I washed, and now I am able to see.”
  • Acts 26:22 – But I obtained help from God and so I am able to stand here to this day, testifying to both the common people and to those in prominence.
  • Romans 1:15 – For which reason I have the desire, as far as I am able, to give the knowledge of the good news to you
  • 1 Corinthians 14:18 – I give praise to God that I am able to make use of tongues
  • 2 Corinthians 1:4 – who comforts me in all my distress, so that I am able to comfort people who are in any distress by the comfort with which I myself am comforted by God.


Fearfully and wonderfully made, anointed with oil my cup overflows, the Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon me, anointed and blessed, no long oppressed but blessed by a God who delights in me outrageously, loving me despite my blemishes, he forgave me my trespasses back at the Cross, he let me off, my sins forgiven and my freedom obtained, no shame, no blame and when I gave my life to be one of his anointed children he elevated me into heavenly Kingdoms, my thoughts no longer of this world, for I am a citizen of heaven in my temporary home, anointed to make known God’s love to all around me, to use the gifts he’s given me to lift others from obscurity and let God set them free, I am able to do all God asks of me exactly because he chose me, my path defined, my blind eyes made to see, my heart filled with desire to pass on what he has done, my joy to praise my Jesus, Son of God with tongues,  my mouth is filled with praise, his love spills over into me, my role to be all he asks me to be, to speak in truth, to speak in love, to bring God’s word down from above, to walk in faith, to walk in love, anointed, blessed, loved and elevated, forever I will shout of his greatness.

God put a great big CROSS in my box

God elected us – chose us, that was the theme of our evening worship yesterday and it is still a blessing to me every time I think about how God chose me.  We are just average people living average lives and then God pops up because we are on his list, we have been chosen and he calls us to follow.  What a privilege but also a responsibility.  I was looking at a painting by a Christian artist on Saturday and it was a stairway from heaven of water (living water) and the artist was saying that most Christians stay at the bottom of the staircase, still getting wet from the water but not venturing closer to God.  However God wants us to seek him and we can get closer if we take first one, then another and yet another step of faith.  He chose us so in my mind there is no way we should shy away from seeking him with all our heart, mind and soul. 

1 Peter 2:9 – But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.


Part of a chosen generation, God put me in this situation, strategically orchestrating my steps since I chose to say yes, overlooked by others but handpicked by God, privileged to be valuable to my Saviour, confident in my labour, beloved child of God, anointed and appointed, elected by God, like if God had to tick polling cards he put a great big CROSS in my box, the cross meant that I was forgiven, I was chosen, I was part of God’s holy nation and the CROSS signifies that I too have died to the old and have risen with the new, part of God’s elected crew, ready to do his will, ready to be still and hear his voice, to jump up in worship and to rejoice, ready to serve, ready to follow, to give God unique control over all my tomorrows.