His Grace sufficient with more to spare

Do you ever look back and see God’s hand in your life?  How he has steered you, guided you, created opportunities; basically life is a series of miracles created by God.  How amazing that is, I just feel like although I missed some opportunities that God laid on for me, he still laid on more.  He never gives up or turns his back, he just continues to give us chances until we finally become obedient and then receive the amazing blessing he has in store for us.


Life is a series of thousands of tiny miracles, notice them, my God is extreme, as he leans in he whispers into my ear, do not fear for you are beautiful, you are made in my image,  I didn’t give you a timid spirit, sit up, take notice of the roaring lion within, the warrior spirit, be fearless, be bold, courageous, you will not succumb to temptation, didn’t I mention that you will face nothing you cannot bear, my Grace sufficient with more to spare, my God is outrageous, he makes me courageous in the face of persecution and seclusion I am not abandoned, he never leaves or forsakes me, that is he’ll never leave me in the lurch, part of his church I am surrounded by love and prayer, I’m part of a family, believe me, my God is not moderate, nor is he complicated, outdated, his word does not need to be moderated, he created me, waited for me, a new creation destined to be perfectly led in God’s perfect ways, all of my days ordained in his book, no longer overlooked I bask in God’s love, radiating his light, perfected at last.

I have passion to become more than a conqueror, a leader, a warrior

Sometimes I can see progress, other times I don’t feel like I am changing, but I take heart from this verse:

Philippians 1:6 – being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus

Jesus chose me for a reason and sees all the potential that I can’t see, with the Holy Spirit working in me I can do amazing things for God and that is exactly what I want to be doing, unfortunately I have never been the most patient person and that’s a lesson I think God is teaching me right now, be still and know that he is God.


Patience, not my strong point, but the point is that when I gave my life to him work had to begin to transform me, to remove the darkness of the past and let his light shine in, preparing me for greater things, his greatness planted in me like a seed that is to be nurtured and nourished with God’s word, his plans for me immeasurably more than all I could ask for or ever imagine, he’s given me gifts and now I have passion to become more than a conqueror, a leader, a warrior, trust is the key and he didn’t bring me this far to leave me, so I trust his process designed to make the most of me, I am a work in progress, so watch this space, have faith, have patience, God isn’t finished with me, I will evolve, grow and improve because of his immense love for me.

I want to be a fierce woman of faith

2 Corinthians 4:16-18 – Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

Kicked myself yesterday, a problem occurred and I immediately worried about it but didn’t turn to God in prayer, when will I get that as my first reaction to stuff?  Suppose habits take some time to form but would like to think I would have formed that one by now!  Anyway taking heart from 2 Corinthians 4 we are being renewed day by day and we have an eternal glory to look forward to that far outweighs any minor concern or trouble we experience now.


I want to be a fierce woman of faith, a lioness arising, one of God’s mighty warriors not a worrier who fails to take everything to God in prayer, I want to champion God’s cause, be an advocate for the Lord sharing his word and taking heart that every part of my life is simply preparing me for the joy to come, every affliction, hardship or torment not meant to bring me down but to build me up, every trial and tribulation there to fill me with God’s renewing touch, my first reaction to stuff, take it to the Lord in prayer, pray over it, through it and for it, don’t ignore it, don’t try and go it alone cos I know that going solo is to fail, in solitary confinement there is silence, I don’t hear you God, I don’t know the path you want me to take, I stumble and fall, but when I call your name, cry out in my pain you answer, I am your treasure, your pleasure and you will never ignore my cries, you rise up to protect and shield me, seek the best for me, strengthen and fulfil me, I want to be a fierce woman of faith, a lioness arising, one of God’s mighty warriors, I will not lose heart, I am renewed, I know the truth of eternal salvation, my love for God needs no explanation.


I gave him my heart and he kicked into action

Beginning to feel like I’ve cracked it, like looking back was part of my recovery but you can’t look back forever.  So letting go and moving forwards is what God wants me to do now and when you look forward you can see all the promises God has in store for you and you can reach out to touch them, to claim them.  I realise that when I gave my heart to God that was just the beginning, but the beginning of what?  The beginning of the most amazing journey ever, the beginning of a new me and the beginning of claiming all the promises God has for me, I want to have an even closer relationship with God I want to claim all the good things he promises and I want to be in a position to give back to God everything he has given me by serving him unconditionally.

Romans 12:2 – Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is – his good, pleasing and perfect will.


My horizon is clearer, I’ve stopped looking back and the horizon is nearer, within my grasp, at last I am able to see more clearly the amazing plan God has for me, for simply believing was never how it was meant to be, believing is not a commitment, my commitment is changing the way that I live, the thoughts that I have and the way I behave, God didn’t save me so I could rot and decay, God saved me so I could have life in abundance, joy, peace and love running through my veins, God took the impossible and made it possible, impossible is where God started with me, I gave him my heart and he gave me a new horizon, a new future, I gave him my heart and he kicked into action, started to fashion me into a new creation and when God takes action things really happen, he takes us as we are, the raw material which we present with but he never leaves us that way, there’s not one day goes by that God is not working in me, moulding and building me, for he knows the plans he has for me, being like the world, well that’s no longer my goal, being like the world leaves a hole, a void in your heart that aches for healing, healing that comes from kneeling and praying to a loving Father who’d rather we forgot the past and looked forward to new horizons, the Lioness is arising in me ready to roar in response to the call of my Father who fills my horizon with rainbows, his promises never fail, God’s plan prevails, trust it, live it, enjoy it, no borders, no barriers, no failures cos I am now one of God’s fearless warriors and I’m drawing ever nearer to God my Saviour through changing my words, thoughts and behaviour.

The Devil is a liar, his entire mission to undermine my self-control

Looking back it’s 50 days since I last cut myself – awesome.  BUT over the last few days thoughts of self-harm have crept back in and I am now struggling with harming myself in other ways and that’s not awesome at all, it’s confusing and difficult to understand.  I have sought prayer support for this and I think today have finally realised that this is a Spiritual battle.  I have not really thought much about what that means before now but it’s beginning to sink in and that kind of makes it easier to understand and therefore to fight against.

Ephesians 6:12 – For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.

2 Corinthians 10:4 – The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds.


I am at war, my enemies are real, they’re strong, they’re attacking me, temptation, oppression, obsession, filling my mind with suggestions that take me away from all you have for me, seeking to secure my mind, to find an area of weakness and they are ceaseless in their attack, incessantly looking for chinks in my armour, and then I remember my armour, God’s armour made especially for me to protect and support me and I forget to put it on, like genuinely forget that you offer me protection, I fear I have no concept of how much you protect me from and I must put on the armour without fail, keep alert, stand strong in my faith, be courageous, be strong, beating the battle within, being disciplined in my daily walk, talking to the Lord and asking him to take my hand, lead me through the minefield of my mind, for only God can destroy mental strongholds and teach me the truth and the Devil is a liar, his entire mission to undermine my self-control, to take my focus off serving God, to hinder my prayer for he knows that prayer is a powerful weapon so here it is, Satan you don’t scare me cos I’m a prayer warrior, I surround myself with warriors on the same mission with a strong vision and we recognise our weapons are not of the world, our Godly weapons have divine power to demolish strongholds, your stranglehold on me was broken the day I spoke to God and gave my life to him, and you know that God is preparing me for greater things, God will lead me, so I leave my fear behind, I have God’s strength and in my human frailty when all else fades, God remains, I reach out to God and ask for his strength he knows where I am, how I am feeling, he knows the beginning and the ending and on the day I meet him in heaven the battle won, the war over I will say, I made it, my battle against the forces of evil ended, the enemy extinguished, and I remember  the Cross and claim for myself Christ’s words “it is finished”.

Rise up and dance and break down all barriers,

Was listening to some new tracks I downloaded and this morning the one that stood out to me was “The Potter’s Hand”.  As I was driving and listening to this was thinking it’s so easy to sing along and say yes God mould me, but have we really thought about all that involves and what we need to hand over to God in order for him to be able to make a real difference in our lives.

I started writing today’s entry below and the words were just flowing from God and it just came to me, although this is my interpretation of what I have been trying to do in my life these words today are for someone specific and I will be sharing them with that person as I truly believe God has given me this message for them.

In my limited experience since becoming a Christian I think it so important to allow God into every aspect of our lives and I know I have been at fault for holding things back, but the more I hand over, the more I feel his great power at work in me.

Isaiah 64:8 Yet you, Lord, are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter;we are all the work of your hand.


How inspirational that God is the potter and we are the clay but hey, are you really ready for the moulding, the sculpting, having your life dissected and put back together again, are you open to change, prepared to be totally rearranged, prepared to hand control over to God your Father?  Will you give him your heart, your thoughts and your time, are you prepared to say these are mine Lord take them, shake them up, stir up a storm in my soul, will you give your actions and reactions over to God, it’s gonna be hard and it’s gonna be messy but unless we are prepared to bare our souls how on earth can God make us whole, will you give him your words and the things that you’ve heard, hand them to him without delving in, without seeking to interpret or analyse, without agonising over the outcome, cos here’s the thing, faith is having the courage to let God take control, you know that he wants to make you whole, his love is relentless and you are not helpless, even to your old age and grey hairs he will sustain you, rescue you, through him we are conquerors because he loved us, praise the Lord  for each day he carries us in his arms, he is your rock and fortress and promises you no harm will befall you, he is the potter and you are the clay, so you can allow God to shape you and make you what he planned you to be, you can trust him, believe that he wants you to see what your future can be when you relax completely in the knowledge that God came to save us, God came to give us life in abundance, break off those chains, stop being a worrier for in God’s eyes you can and will be a mighty warrior.

Onward and upward you Christian Soldier

OK so have had Ephesians 6 on my mind and reading it today really fired me up for our loving God, life is a battle and the more I know God the more I think I see the battle and understand how we can be attacked or deceived by the enemy unless we put on the armour of God. Some other verses that kind of resounded along with this were

James 4:7 – Submit yourselves therefore to God, resist the devil and he will flee from you 

Hebrews 10:35-36 – So do not throw away your confidence (boldness); it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.


I am a Spiritual Warrior, onward and upward you Christian Soldier, I am strong in the Lord, he is building a people of power and I, wearing the full armour can take my stand against the enemy, let’s face it the Christian walk is a battleground not a playground and I stand against the schemes of the devil, I am strong in the face of evil for I am strong in the Lord and his Mighty Power and the task ahead of me is never as great as the Power behind me, I am not afraid, I stand firm throughout the unseen battle, for those who trust the Lord are protected by his constant love, have Faith, by Faith I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, and our struggle is not against flesh and blood but against spiritual wickedness and as God is my witness I will persevere in my fight, I claim the might of my heavenly Father, I pray that whenever I speak God gives me the right words so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of God’s love, I submit myself to God so the devil will flee, I claim boldness and confidence in my Saviour, pray ceaselessly in the Spirit with all kind of prayers, layer upon layer of prayers of servanthood, living the good life that Jesus promised secure in the knowledge that I have my Spiritual armour, and God looks down and says “nothing will harm her” for she is my daughter with whom I am pleased, she has received my love freely, believed in me completely, prays to me ceaselessly, and her timidity will be replaced with daring and determination, her life full of love, trust and affirmation and God I declare that I want to serve you as one of your Warriors, not by my might or power but by your Spirit, I put on the armour and stand firm for I know that with you I am never alone.