I got a picture from God yesterday of a tugboat guiding a large cruise ship. I have been looking at what the internet says about tugboats and amongst other things it says:
A tug is a type of vessel that manoeuvres other vessels by pushing or pulling them either by direct contact or by means of a tow line. Tugs typically move vessels that either are restricted in their ability to manoeuvre on their own, such as ships in a crowded harbour or a narrow canal, or those that cannot move by themselves, such as barges, disabled ships, log rafts, or oil platforms. Tugboats are powerful for their size and strongly built….
I am praying into this image and what it means for me but am uplifted in many ways. I have been praying for the LGBT community, those I know and those I don’t know. Sometimes those prayers feel like I am praying against an impenetrable or immovable mountain, yet I know God can move all mountains and penetrate all strongholds. I believe that God can use me as a “tugboat” and that with his help and grace I can be powerful for my size. I know that I am being built on strong foundations and continue to pray to become stronger and more resilient as I seek how God wants me to help reach this community.
Small, my voice is small, crowded out at times, I speak, who’s listening? I talk to God, he gives me strength, we talk at length of his promises, the rainbow speaks to me, a promise to all humanity that he will never again wipe us from existence and then I think of our resistance to his love, how we have gone so far off line, lost in a maze of human corruption, of immorality, a misguided sense of freedom, we fall, we fail, unlike God’s love which never fails us, just look at the example set by Jesus, I cannot give up, I cannot quit, this is my calling, this is it, a lifeline to those who are restricted in their own ability to manoeuvre into God’s love, those in a crowded harbour deafened by the hustle and bustle who fail to hear my muffled cries, I must grow stronger, my voice no longer silenced, I must speak louder, believe in the power that lives within me, so many vessels lost at sea unless I can be what God wants me to be, I see the challenge before me, open my arms, here I am Lord, send me…