What a struggle the last few days has been, a battle of the mind, a battle of the enemy trying to get to me. I can recognise when I am under attack now which is a real step forward from the past, but it’s tough when the enemy tries so many ways to trick and deceive us. I kind of recognise that there is a degree of testing going on too: James 1: 12 – Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial
I rejoice that one day I will understand everything, I will see and understand God’s plans and his ways, but in the meantime I am going to praise God that he does have a plan for me and he is preparing me for that plan. Let’s face it that’s clearly why the enemy is attacking me, he’s worried about my future because he knows I am going to be a danger to him and all I can say is AMEN to that.
1 Corinthians 13:12 – For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
Isaiah 54: 11 – 12 – O afflicted one, storm-tossed, and not comforted behold, I will set your stones in antimony and your foundations I will lay in sapphires. “Moreover, I will make your battlements of rubies and your gates of crystal and your entire wall of precious stones.
James 1:5-6 – If any of you lacks wisdom you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault and it will be given you, but when you ask you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind
What I see now is merely a reflection of what I will see when I finally meet you Lord, the love I feel now a mere taste of your love reserved for me when I see you face to face, what I know now cannot compete with what I will know then as my knowledge right now is only partial, yet you know me fully oh Lord, you know my every thought, you see my every movement, you hear my every cry, you hear my whys you see me tossing on the waves, saved but storm tossed, struggling to find comfort, my thoughts drown out the sound of your whispered love and I must refocus on Jesus, ask God for his word, believe and not doubt, I sing and shout in worship and praise, raise the volume higher as I defy the enemy, not going to let him get to me, his lies will wash over me, the blood of Jesus protects me, and see as I focus and listen closely I once again tune into God’s voice and I can rejoice that he never fails me and continues to build me.